Tuesday, January 26, 2010


good morning beauty...

i have been dreaming up ways to use my business in a manner that would allow me to give big to all of the wonderful charities out there doing such good and wonderful things..  not wanting to just fling something out there.. i thought and thought and thought until i realized, i just needed to fling something out there and see what happens.  he he!  i am so excited!

the first organization i am holding photo sessions to benefit is save the children.   part of their mission is listed below.. i encourage you to look at their website, as it has so much more information than i could possibly post here..

"Our mission is to create lasting, positive change in the lives of children in need.
With your support, Save the Children will ensure that children in need grow up safe, educated and healthy, and better able to attain their rights."

interested?  if so, please contact me to confirm a time slot for your photo session on march 6.

in peace and joy...

Sunday, January 24, 2010


accidentally captured

what's going on inside the noggin tonight...

so freaking cool.

must get photoshop.

must get sleep.

my brother is great.

i wonder if its hot in Guatemala in February?

laughing with friends is healing.

drunk guitar-playing friends are hilarious.

husbands that make the bed are good.

husbands that pour the wine, and then make the bed.. even better!

must reply to emails.
soo many emails.

it was a nice day...
better than yesterday...
so much better.

i love my girls.
my mike.
my life.

good night!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


... i chose to ignore everything else and just be their mama...

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


winter light cholla - vibrance
my hope is that this post relates a much lighter and happier reflection of where i am. in my last post, i was spilling of all of the tenderness and confusion that has been swirling inside of me over the past week... it was truth, but not the whole truth. i was focusing on my hurting and feelings of inadequacy, but i am so much more than those feelings... last post was my spewing of emotion, to make room for change. because, i believe, sometimes we need to get all messy and complicated and blubbery, to get to the clarity underneath... at least, it usually takes all of that for me to see things clearly..


fresh direction now...


this is my word for 2010. (is it a word?? my imac dictionary doesn't think so).. anyway... everyone in blog-land seems raptured by this idea of choosing one word to describe your intentions for the next year... i think its a cool idea.. i'm in! albeit i am a little late start.. but as you may know, i don't like to follow the rules.

so.. vibrance... yes. vibrance!

i yearn to live a more vibrant life... a life with more celebrations, more fun, more laughter. i want prepare more nutrient-packed vibrant dishes for my family to savour! to feel sparkly in my body and soul and to help in any way i can for my family and friends to feel the same... to develop a photo portfolio of vibrance to share with the world, helping to spread joy and speed healing.


2010! welcome to my year of vibrance!

Sunday, January 10, 2010


how does a mama reconcile with the order of mother nature...
when her sweet innocent child is hurting?
how does she know?
let go?
blindly believe?
when the pure eyes of her babe look into hers for comfort and truth?
how is it that she can whisper "everything will be alright, you are safe"..
into the babe's ears, when she does not know what the future holds?
i swear...
mamas are magic.

she thinks i am magic.
mothering has been the most powerful catalyst in my life. my girls are the only mirror i have ever looked into and seen the truth so clearly... so raw and unedited. mothering quickly brought me to the core of my life's quest... miracles and beauty... and significant circumstances allowed the poignant realization of my abundantly blessed life.

with fresh eyes i view my world.. my world, my life, as "mother"...
renewed appreciation and respect overcome the mundane and overlooked miracles...
the loving and comforting easy smile across her face...
the way her hair gets messy only moments after brushing it...
the sigh that releases as i hold her..
this beauty is not lost on me...
how long does it last?
how long does the sense of wonder and gratitude last after the fear of losing your child passes? if even the likelihood is not there, the fear is. nobody talks about that... at least nobody i know of.
everyday beautiful moments fuel my life.
i document them.
i savour them.

if i had the discipline, i would post about every gorgeous breath i take in on a cold evening walk. the way the morning light shines into my front windows and illuminates my soul in a way nothing else can... how the steam rolling off a cup of tea can take my breath away... i am keenly aware of everyday miracles, yet the sense of wonder is unsurpassed when near tragedy or significant pain has been felt. how can the intensity of gratefulness maintain without the yang to its yin?

that is what is whirling around in my mind... any insight?

Saturday, January 9, 2010


new phone number


Monday, January 4, 2010


evening hike in the desert
good friends
great way to start off the new year!!!

Friday, January 1, 2010


wishing you a joyous 2010!
may all of your dreams come true!
smooch smooch lovelies!