this was such a beautiful morning... sunrise session my last day in tucson... two beautiful people in love... and hello! san pedro chapel! where have you been all my life? seriously, an amazing location..
ah... October and November flew by... i skipped October's edition because i can't find a family pic... i know i took some.. i must have taken at least one!?
anyhow... November gets two pictures...
its been a wonderful month... i now have a 5 year old! she seems 5 going on 20, but i guess most parents think that of their precocious little ones.. the tantrums are hilarious (well looking back on them they are.. catch me in the moment and i am usually as swept up as she is)... the foot stomping, grumpy faces, and exaggerated "hmphs"! aye-yi-yi! not sure where she gets it from? (i'm sure my mother will catch the strong whiff of sarcasm here) but most of the time she is my sweet one.. so eager to help and take care of her younger sister... she has so much love and patience.. and a style that goes unmatched! she is all pink and purple these days... amazing what children do for your heart... mine swells with pride and admiration constantly...
i also have an almost two year old who is talking up a storm in a sweet little baby accent that i do not fully understand... she is in such a fun age.. she adores and mimics her big sister... often trying on her clothes before anyone notices... lately she has been putting on costume necklaces then climbing onto the toilet to get a good look at herself in the bathroom mirror, then exclaiming "sooo pretty!"... she is independent and sure of herself - insisting to walk instead of being carried, even in the grocery where i beg and plead for her to go into the cart... yet she still so little and i am savoring the times when all she wants is to snuggle with her head on my chest.. while rocking her by the fire this evening... she went abruptly from telling me all about our house to a sound peaceful sleep, with her lips making the nursing movements and a little sigh escaping her... ah! these moments, so blessed... this one is a fireball - full of life and love... she completed our little family and i felt that deeply as soon as she was born..
ok.. parental gushing aside...
we are LOVING colorado... the hiking, the mountains, the prairie, the cold weather.. all of it! a couple weekends ago, we stumbled upon the shambhala center while looking for a hiking trail... so glad we journeyed into the great stupa... it was absolutely breathtaking! as soon as i opened the door i gasped and tears flowed... the wash of serenity and beauty... i can't tell you how much we all needed to be there...
other than a few trips to denver and a few hikes, we've spent most of our time at home, but its been so wonderful... i am a big homebody, so i am biased.
our days usually consist of oatmeal... bird watching and feather finding... entertainment a la squirrel antics... planning and making and eating lots of soup and bread.... snuggling by the fire... finding little girls huddled on the heating vents... reading... knitting... sewing... watching episode upon episode upon episode of little house on the prairie... lots and lots of coloring... and singing... oh boy... tons of singing!
its been a good month... one with so many lessons and so many moments to be grateful for...
thank you November for all the beautiful memories!
this small project is in response to a few days filled with the pure rawness of life...
the unfair, sad and painful balanced with the bliss-filled, gentle and deviously happy...
i needed to document little miraculous wonderful happy bits of my day to day life...
i needed to validate... to witness... to celebrate these small magical times.... the ones that i - far too often - take for granted, yet these are the memories i look back on and smile with my heart full.
rest in peace sweet baby violet... and may your mama and papa be surrounded in love and light.
while august was filled with the possibility of change, september was filled with the reality of transition.
while i do not want to rehash specifics... lord knows, i do not want to live through a few of the moments ever again...
what i will share is, september was filled with::
me saying and doing the wrong thing (more than i can ever remember)
me apologizing to my family and myself.. a lot.
a lot of crying... by all of the long girls.
beautiful happy moments (one of which is pictured above)
lots of bike riding (crazy awesome - not at all a bad thing)
lots of saying "oops!"
only filling up the gas tank once
free flower seeds
time with denver friends (so grateful for them)
soup.... lots and lots of soup.
street musicians and street magicians
a date with my mary - complete with a kite, a diner, a mini shopping cart and hearing "this is the best day of my life, mom!"
french press coffee
spiders - everywhere!
a windfall of free apples and plums
feeling the seasons shift
potty training for one little girl and starting school for the other
full moon praising
lots of singing and snuggling and sighing.
the picture above was taken towards the end of the month during a family bike ride to the market... funny that we cling to each other and to the sign that tells us to "let it all go"... i can only let go when i know i have them.
my family is what kept me somewhat sane during this transition. their love, their humor, their consistency of being wonderfully imperfect - yet - oh so perfect to me - kept me grounded while i tried so desperately to "let it all go."
september was tough... no joke. but as always, challenging times = heightened appreciation for the sweetness in life.
here is to a beautiful october.... so far, its been awesome!
a new (awesome) town a new home to settle into new friends to meet and love a new age to celebrate (my 33rd and according to hobbits i have finally reached adulthood) new foods (for sophia - bye bye mama milk) new trees to climb and dream in new trails to hike and bike a new swimming hole new mountains to explore and campsites to find new clients to meet and play with new domestic responsibilities (a lawn to mow and a garden to dig out and plant) a new job (a dream realized and fulfilled) new farmers to meet and befriend at the market a new climate (yay!!!!! seasons!!!!)
yet, with all this newness, there remains the same blissed out love for my family and the same gratefulness in my heart for this blessed life i've been given.
it is going to be another wonderful journey around the sun!
these two beauties are my nieces...
they are amazingly gorgeous!
i am almost finished editing their family session... i do not think i am being biased by saying: this family is the epitome of beauty - inside and out. they are kind, fun, gorgeous... just lovely lovely people... and i am so grateful to know them and call them family.
a beautiful, gentle and kind yogini i met while in michigan. she's my mama's yoga teacher, and i was fortunate to be able to attend two of her classes - which were held in underneath a octagonal skylight... i bathed in a vortex of light and warmth during the asanas... ah, so wonderful!
i highly recommend to all my lovely kzoo friends to head over to one of her classes! she teaches at k-college and sangha yoga. you will not be disappointed, she is all around lovely lovely lovely!
what i loved so much about this session were the magical nooks we found to shoot in... my favorite is represented in the third picture... it was taken in the 5 feet of green area between the parking lot and dumpsters... beauty is all around!
my view from the driver's seat... just north of flagstaff.. july 31, 2010
i've been itching to post something in this space for a week now... i don't have a lot of time to write, but i just wanted to say::
life is so good friends... sooooo - bleeping - good!!
fort collins is heaven on earth for us. everything about this place makes my heart sing, and i swear our family life (sans the explosive baby poop) is lighter and filled with so much joy! i couldn't be any more pleased with how this all transpired... we are most certainly blessed and we are just so grateful and overjoyed to be living this life!
soon, maybe tonight, i will post from the last sessions before our move... so much fun and beauty to share.
taking a break from the photo business... ah! that feels so good to finally say!
my family and i are relocating to fort collins, colorado very soon... and soon means in just over a week! i have disabled the shopping cart on my website and will not be taking orders or booking sessions for a while. i'm guessing a few months. i really want to make this transition as smooth as possible for our girls -and i am sure i will be quite overwhelmed without adding running a solo business to the mix! i know my limits!
i will come to this space to announce when i will begin to accept new clients and orders.
this is the first session with primarily black and white images...
ah.. and this beautiful vibrant family... this family is so, so, so lovely... there home is bright and cheery... so welcoming and filled with love... there is a magic about them... and i bet i'm not the only one who notices... they sparkle!
yay! i am so excited to offer these sessions! michigan is a beautiful place, especially in the summer!!! the grass, the lakes, the trees!! oh, the trees! all that green... after living in the desert for 10 years, the intense green and the abundance of water in michigan is always such a visual treat...
i am also excited to add that i have added a button on the right sidebar, that allows my clients to pay for their session fees with paypal! yay! no more writing checks! ok, i admit, this is most likely only exciting to me..
steve took this picture...
it makes me so ridiculously happy... of course it reminds my of my little brother, who is amazing - when i say that i feel like one of those a**hole celebrities that say everyone is "amazing", but i really mean it... the kid has freakin talent! - actually, i am so lucky, all of my siblings are so fun and creative and i thoroughly enjoy hanging around all of them!
anyway... this picture..
it is so real, so spontaneous, so silly... i am un-showered, i believe my zipper is somewhat down (ha!), and i am wearing my green flannel... always with the green flannel... its good to make fun, have fun, be fun!
i finally updated my website! its all reconfigured, and loaded with fresh faces! i urge you to check it out... let me know if you find any kinks, alright?
the usps graced me with a box of 1,500 business cards! whoo hoo!!! i usually go with moo, but vista prints' offer was too good! so if you are in tucson, i imagine you will see my cards plastered all over town!
now, i will turn off the computer... finish my simpler times and play with my family!
denise is amazing.. her performance shakes you to the core.. you feel every emotion a person can feel. tears and smiles and chills... she is remarkable! i recommend anyone offered the opportunity to watch her preform to do it! it is an honor to know and to photograph such a creative soul.
their bond is pure beauty! what an honor! of course, it was a session with me in tears behind the lens. at one point i had to stop and collect myself before i could continue.. mamas and their babies, no matter how old, always get me... every time... right in the core.
i sit here at my mess of a desk, i can literally see only a few inches of desk.. the rest is receipts, contracts, books, crayons, valentines, bills, chocolate wrappers :)... anyhow... i am so chaotic and scattered lately... trying to regroup and avoid being so distracted!
i have had so many emails wondering how sweet mary's surgery went.... and i apologize for not saying until now.. "she did GREAT!".. anyone who knows her will tell you she is a rockstar! ... everything went really really wonderful! thank you for your kindness and good healing vibes. we are so grateful to have so many who give us so much love!
things are pretty much back to our chaotic normal around here... yesterday we took the girls up the mountain to play in the snow... how under prepared we were! after fifteen minutes the girls had wet freezing feet and tears... i guess, rain boots and fleece pj pants are not enough... i surrendered my socks so mary could play a little longer! ok by me... i sat in the warm car, knitting and listening to nothing!... you bet i savored every quiet moment!
so again, thanks for all of the well-wishes! they worked!
on another note... i have had one cancellation for the save the children photo sessions... there is a one hour opening @ 1:45 on march 6. interested? shoot me an email! booked! thank you!